My twelfth little arrow, my sweet Fidelis Se’arah

On Monday, I delivered our twelfth baby, Fidelis Se’arah.
It still leaves me feeling rather speechless in many ways.

We had expected and hoped to be holding this baby in our arms during the season of Advent, when we always raise our voices loudly singing the song Adeste Fidelis (“O Come All Ye Faithful”).

In Job, the Lord speaks to Job from the whirlwind (see Job 38:1, for example); and Job is a book that my husband and I have been reading, listening to sermons on, and going through a book study on recently/currently.

We have seen God’s great faithfulness to us in past storms, and now we are calling on Him again to once again prove His faithfulness to us in the midst of this tempest.

Here are some Scriptures that are blessing me this week as I grieve the death of my sweet Fidelis Se’arah, as I meditate upon my faithful King, as I long to be released from the whirlwind of sorrow in this life, as I toil for the Kingdom and anticipate reuniting with my children someday when I see my Jesus face to face and touch His pierced side with my own hands.

Deuteronomy 7:9 “Know therefore that the Lord your God is God, the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love with those who love him and keep his commandments, to a thousand generations.”
Deuteronomy 32:4 “The Rock, his work is perfect, for all his ways are justice. A God of faithfulness and without iniquity, just and upright is he.”
1 Samuel 12:24 “Only fear the Lord and serve him faithfully with all your heart. For consider what great things he has done for you.”
Psalm 25:10 “All the paths of the Lord are steadfast love and faithfulness, for those who keep his covenant and his testimonies.”
Psalm 36:5 “Your steadfast love, O Lord, extends to the heavens, your faithfulness to the clouds.”
Psalm 69:13 “But as for me, my prayer is to you, O Lord. At an acceptable time, O God, in the abundance of your steadfast love answer me in your saving faithfulness.”
2 Timothy 2:10-13 “I endure everything for the sake of the elect, that they also may obtain the salvation that is in Christ Jesus with eternal glory. The saying is trustworthy, for: If we have died with him, we will also live with him;if we endure, we will also reign with him;
if we deny him, he also will deny us;if we are faithless, he remains faithful— for he cannot deny himself.”
1 Peter 4:19 “Therefore let those who suffer according to God’s will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good.”
Revelation 2:10 “Do not fear what you are about to suffer. …Be faithful unto death, and I will give you the crown of life.”
Job chapters 38 & 39 (40 & 41 as well, honestly), as I meditate upon the Lord holding all of these things in His faithful, true, loving hands.

6 Replies to “My twelfth little arrow, my sweet Fidelis Se’arah”

  1. Oh, Melissa and Steven and Family,

    I am heartbroken for you! I don’t know what to say except that I am praying for you and hoping that you will soon be released from this whirlwind of sorrow and grief. May our Lord and Heavenly Father comfort you.
    Much love, hugs and prayers.

  2. Dear ones,

    Our God is the one, true and faithful God — but He is a dangerous and unpredictable tempest — He is in the business of transforming and beautifying His own creation in the most remarkable of ways, for His own pleasure and glory. He is both perfecting each one of us, and perfecting His entire created order for eternity. Clearly, He deemed it needful for heaven to have Fidelis for glory sooner rather than later. May God give us all the peace, comfort, and confidence to continue trusting that His ways are higher than our ways, His thoughts wiser than our thoughts, His knowledge grander than ours.

    And, know this, that He who has begun a good work by and through the Cummings family will continue to perfect that work, in Christ Jesus, both here and in heaven, now and forevermore.

    Blessings will continue in great abundance, through our God Who is faithful,

    With love and tears, Grandpapa

  3. I came here via feminagirls, following your comment about posting a eulogy. I just had my first miscarriage after four healthy children, and it’s such a new and challenging thing to deal with. Thank you for setting an example with your own faith in Him. I’m sure you are a blessing to many more than you know. I was due Dec. 17, which sounds close to your due date. Lots of hugs to you today. . . .

  4. I recently heard about your loss from your father and was so grieved for you. Your loss is unspeakable, one that I have known only once but will be altered by forever. My prayers are with you during this time, sweet mama!

  5. Oh, Melissa. I weep with you. I had not yet heard of your two sweet babies that you commended to God’s care this year. I continue to pray for you and your family as you follow this hard and glorious path.

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