An up and down day.
We saw our baby’s beautiful heartbeat.
But we are told that flutter will soon be gone.
The hormones aren’t going up.
We are at a loss.
We are broken.
Such a long, hard week.
Then little bites of hope.
And now — nothing.
Don’t give up praying.
We can still pray for a miracle.
But ultimately, we need to pray that we would peacefully say:
EVEN SO, LORD, NOT MY WILL BUT THINE BE DONE.
While the tears stream down my face and my eyes puff up and my chest heaves…