I don’t know what to write because I don’t want to put the words in concrete.
We don’t understand what happened.
But the baby is gone.
Oh God, help me.
His heart was beating this morning. For pity sake, we saw it with our own eyes!!!!!!
He looked so healthy and beautiful!!
God, why would You DO that?!
And somehow while I was lying down this afternoon, holding him closer than anything, he died.
God, aren’t You LISTENING?!
I know I wanted to hold you in my hands, but not now. Not today.
Oh God, not today.
Our hearts are broken.
Our faith is crushed.
Our strength is gone.
We feel forsaken. Completely.
His little body is so beautiful.
From his little eyes pits to his tiny legs.
He would have been so handsome.
God, why did you take him from our family?! We LOVED this child!
I don’t think I can keep breathing.