Monday May 17, 2010

I don’t want to write this, and -in fact- I don’t know what to say.
Baby Seven will not be joining us for our Christmas picture this year.
Instead, we found out that this baby is already singing hallelujahs with five older siblings.

This was confirmed today (although we had thought things were going so well), and tomorrow I will be undergoing an outpatient surgery. Please pray for us. As though it isn’t enough to be grieving the loss of another child, we have so many medical decisions facing us. It is hard to think clearly when we are swimming in such grief. Please pray that our grief would not cloud our judgment. Please pray that God would give us wise counselors. Please pray for my protection, physically, tomorrow. Please pray that we would find comfort in one another, and in our miracle Gabriel. And please pray that God would give us peace in moving forward – whatever that means.

6 Replies to “Monday May 17, 2010”

  1. Melissa,
     My heart sank when I read your title and then I felt hopeful; like maybe it was just an update on the pregnancy. And then it sank again as I read.
    I am so sorry. I’m so sorry for the pain and sadness this brings to your family and for the defeated feelings you must be feeling.

    I will be praying for this surgery you’re going to have. I will pray for the Dr’s to have much wisdom and I will pray for you, personally – that God will keep you safe and that the healing process would come quickly.

    Sending love and prayers… Stef

  2. Melissa, I am stunned to read of this. My eyes are full of tears for you and my chest feels crushed.

    I am crying for your little one and for your sorrow, and we will be praying a lot for you.

    I don’t know what else to say, but I love you.

    ~Meggan

  3. Melissa,

     I am so sorry. I have been and will continue praying for you and Steven. In Psalms, God tells us through David that “weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning”. I know your “night” of pain and sorrow has been long but keep looking to our true source of joy and comfort, Jesus Christ. Through Him alone can we face the trials and tragedies of this world.

  4. Melissa~

    There is a stab of anger as the hot bitter tears fill my eyes.   I want to kick something.   I am so sorry.

    I am so so so sorry about the decisions that you are facing.   It really stinks to have to be thinking long term,  and making these kind of decisions when you can hardly breathe. 

    I will be praying for you CONSTANTLY for the rest of today and for tomorrow’s surgery.   You can e-mail me any time!!    

  5. Oh Melissa,

    When I read this late last night before shutting the computer down, I just couldn’t comment. I didn’t know what to say, tears falling, in shock and so sad for you.We got your letter yesterday and I was so happy and joyful for you and had just said a prayer. And then my Joy was turned to sorrow and grief. I couldn’t sleep; just kept thinking of you and all you are facing now. Losing sweet Seven and now having to go through surgery and decisions…We are praying hard for you; constantly. Praying for comfort, praying for wisdom and guidance. Praying for your safety and protection. May God guide your doctors and give them the knowledge and wisdom.
    You are in our thoughts, in our hearts.Love you!~S

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