Isaiah 26:3-4

You keep him in perfect peace
whose mind is stayed on You,
because he trusts in You.
Trust in the LORD forever,
for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock.

Peace Nikonos, my precious little baby… a year ago today we saw your beautiful heartbeat. Your sweet little body floated in Mommy’s womb, and we watched you on the ultrasound machine. Just a few hours later, I held you in my hand and wept over you. Today I weep again, as I remember the happiness you brought us during your life, and the devastation that your death left behind. We know you are in perfect peace, and you have been made perfect through the righteousness of Christ, as you reign in the glories of heaven with Him. But I still miss you. Daddy misses you. And your big brother misses you. He says your name beautifully. I hope you welcomed your newest little sister with joy and blessing this week. Dance with her while I can’t. Praise the Lord together. My arms ache to hold you and my lips long to cover you with kisses. I hope I can do that when I reach heaven’s glories.

There really isn’t a day in my life that isn’t eclipsed by grief.

7 Replies to “Peace”

  1. what a heartbreaking, beautiful tribute to your son Peace, Melissa. So many hugs as you continue on this long road of grief.

  2. Praying endlessly for you as you pass through this long, dark tunnel, fraught with sharp stones and pitfalls. May the end be very near, and open to a beautiful, fruitful land before you.

  3. ((HUGS))
    My heart physically aches for you and I can’t help but cry whenever I think of you and Steven. The losses you have endured are more than most have gone through on this earth.
    I admire you for being able to write this tribute to Peace amidst the grief of losing Hosanna.
    Praying and petitioning the Lord.

  4. We know God has real purposes for our lives… but I think sometimes getting to those purposes can be so painful. I am confident He will use you and Steven to help others and to walk through grief with other couples, as you both have had to walk through it so many times. I’m sure you’ve already had opportunities to bless so may.
    I prayed for you much today. Wish I could give you an in person hug.

  5. I’m praying for you. What a beautiful letter/prayer to your sweet baby. It makes me cry every time I read your post about your sweet babies who are in Heaven. You are so strong to be able to go through this each time. I would not be able to do it. God Bless you for all the pain you have had to go through.

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