You keep him in perfect peace
whose mind is stayed on You,
because he trusts in You.
Trust in the LORD forever,
for the LORD GOD is an everlasting rock.
Peace Nikonos, my precious little baby… a year ago today we saw your beautiful heartbeat. Your sweet little body floated in Mommy’s womb, and we watched you on the ultrasound machine. Just a few hours later, I held you in my hand and wept over you. Today I weep again, as I remember the happiness you brought us during your life, and the devastation that your death left behind. We know you are in perfect peace, and you have been made perfect through the righteousness of Christ, as you reign in the glories of heaven with Him. But I still miss you. Daddy misses you. And your big brother misses you. He says your name beautifully. I hope you welcomed your newest little sister with joy and blessing this week. Dance with her while I can’t. Praise the Lord together. My arms ache to hold you and my lips long to cover you with kisses. I hope I can do that when I reach heaven’s glories.
There really isn’t a day in my life that isn’t eclipsed by grief.