Tuesday August 11, 2009

I think pretty much all of us need to hear this. Probably frequently. They are wonderful words. May each of us prayerfully, joyfully apply them.

“Spilling Grace”

When someone pokes you, what comes out? What happens when someone questions some conviction or practice you hold dear? It could be anything from your faith in Christ down to your conviction that socks should be folded, not rolled. What if someone expresses a contrary opinion? What if someone expresses a strong contrary opinion? How do you respond? When someone pokes you, what comes out? How do you handle it when someone in church disagrees with your health care convictions? What comes out? What comes out when someone says they think homeschoolers are lazy? Or what comes out when someone says that people who have their babies in the hospital are stupid? Or what about having babies at home? What comes out when you get poked?

Paul’s prayer for the Ephesians was that they would know the love of Christ which passes understanding, and that they would be filled with all the fullness of God. Later, he urges them to be filled with the Spirit, speaking to one another in psalms, hymns, and spiritual songs, making melody in their hearts to the Lord, giving thanks always for all things to God the Father in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ, submitting to one another in the fear of God… Paul’s prayer for the Ephesians in other words was that when the Ephesians got poked, they would spill the fullness of God. And notice that Paul ties this directly to knowing the love of Christ. Do you know the love of Christ like that? Do you know the love of Christ such that when you get poked, you pour out the fruits of the Spirit and thankfulness and submission in the fear of God. Or do you spill crankiness, prickliness, and defensiveness? And if when you are poked you don’t spill the fruits of the Spirit, and you are cranky and defensive, you need to consider why. Why do you get defensive when someone suggests that your cigarette habit is kind of stupid? Or your clothing is offensive or your childrearing is defective or your roommate says you are totally unhip?

If you aren’t spilling grace then you need to reconsider what you’re holding on to or how you’re holding on to it. If it isn’t grace that you’re holding on to, then grace isn’t going to come pouring out. And if it is grace, but you’re holding it like a thug, then you can’t be surprised when something thuggish emerges. Be filled with the Spirit, and know the love of Christ which passes knowledge. You know that you’re filled with grace when someone pokes you and you spill grace. You know you’re filled with the Spirit when someone pokes you and you start singing psalms and inviting them over for dinner.

Tuesday August 11, 2009

Philippians 4:4-8
Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice. Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand;  do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.

Romans 15:13
May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.

Proverbs 12:20
Deceit is in the heart of those who devise evil,
   but those who plan peace have joy.


We are praising the Lord today for His kindness, and His providence — even when it boggles my mind and I do not understand why He does what He does. I know that He is faithful, even when I question His plans and His motives. I tend to think only on my own plans, my own motives. I pray that He will continue to grow me and mold me so that I seek only after His intentions and faithfully follow His guidance. So that the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart will be acceptable, lovely, and honoring in His sight. Amen.
I spoke with my nurse again today — have gotten a couple of things back from the lab. Found out I have hypothyroid. Wheeeee, I was excited that we found something we can fix!! God is so kind! Hopefully that getting that back in ship-shape order will not only help preserve our future babies but also aid in some other areas for me. I am extremely thankful. After yet another screw-up on the clinic’s part (what in the world is wrong with their administration?! Steven thinks they hire 4th graders to do their desk work…), our follow up appointment will be on the 26th. I am eager for that.
Music camp at church is over. It was a long, busy, humbling week. I am thankful it has passed, but am also thankful that I was blessed with the opportunity to serve & minister there. It was great to see the hard work and growth the kids made in just 6 days. Saturday night they put on a concert at the church, and it went really well. And although my wrists don’t want me touching a piano for a little while, I am happy to say that I even played well. 🙂 Apparently our pastor said to my husband after the concert that his hands were tired just from watching me burn up the keys on Haydn’s “The Heavens Are Telling”! We did take it at a pretty good little clip… 🙂
And have I mentioned our newest hobby of disc-golfing? Yes, well, we did it again last evening with a very dear couple — and Gabriel even came along. He rode on my back (which was a good excuse for my ill playing, haha), and did well enough that we were even able to go to our friends’ house for grilled burgers afterwards. One of the most enjoyable evenings ever, I think. 🙂 God is so kind.
Have I also mentioned that Gabriel started crawling (yes, I know, he’s already walking…) this week? And can get from lying down to sitting up and even standing up now. Praise the Lord!! I’m a very excited mommy. 🙂
Have a delightful evening. I think I shall, as well. Goodnight.


Thursday August 6, 2009

Some pictures from our friends Ryan and Shelby’s goodbye cookout at the park! It was incredibly hot out — thus the picture of my son without pants (gasp!). I have never wanted to be one of “those moms” who let their kids run around when not fully clothed, but I made a partial exception that day. Siiigh. Also, in the third picture you can see the little “splash pad” in the background where the kids all ran around in the water cooling off. I did pick up Gabriel and run through the water, not so much because he wanted to cool off but because his mommy did! 🙂

And here are some pictures I took yesterday morning from my back yard. The morning glories are just beautiful every morning! And it’s always a new surprise — since different ones open up each day. They are all different, and each intricately beautiful. Also, my “wildflower bed” in the back yard has started blooming beautifully. The yellow “susan” type flower is one of my favorites. The poppies too though, which I didn’t take a picture of yesterday.

And then, yes, my garden. It is literally a jungle. See the chain link fence behind me? That is the dividing line into the neighbor’s back yard… umm, they are now the proud owners of some pumpkin vines — I can no longer pull them back through the chain link. Hope they like pumpkins! 🙂 Hah.

This is the view looking back towards our lawn and house. I love my little jungle. But I’ve learned some things to do differently next year!

A pumpkin blossom with a honeybee inside.

A pumpkin. 🙂

So, umm, some of the paths between rows have officially 100% disappeared. Makes it tricky…
But anyway, this is two types of squash on the left (hanging over the path), then beets with sunflowers inbetween them, and then lots of bushy-topped carrots, and then -what’s that?!- oooh one pathway still remaining on the right. 🙂

Pumpkins, pumpkins, pumpkins — who knew they would be so prolific? Not me. 🙂
Cucumbers are hiding under there too. And then sunflowers and lettuce on the left — some old lettuce, with some new starts just coming up through the soil.

Lastly, a bumblebee. Because he was so cute sitting there on the sunflower leaf. 🙂

and most of my week is wrapped up in music camp at church — of which I have no pictures, since I am constantly sitting at the piano. take my word for it though: it’s busy, it’s challenging, and it’s fun. and music is getting under my skin again — in a good way. 🙂

Wednesday August 5, 2009

Okay, anyone & everyone — not like I usually get very many comments — but all three of you! haha…
LISTEN UP!!

I am going to be working on a couple small composing projects. Hymn-like, shall we say.
I want to put some passages of Scripture (other than psalms) into hymn-like settings.
So this is the deal: what passages do you think would be beneficial to hymn-ize? (I know that’s not a word…)

I was thinking of these “possible possibilities” and am open for any ideas for more/others:

  • 1 Samuel 2:1-10
  • Ephesians 1:3-14
  • John 1:1-18
  • Proverbs 2:1-22
  • and Proverbs 3:1-35
  • Deuteronomy 28:1-14
  • Numbers 6:24-25
  • Jude 24-25
  • Philippians 4:4-9

Wednesday August 5, 2009

“Many are the afflictions of the righteous, but the Lord delivers him out of them all.”

Psalm 34:19

There are all kinds of afflictions in this world. You may be afflicted with one or two, or a dozen, or even many more than that. But if you are an heir of the Lord God, the Heavenly King, then you can look ahead with hope for there will be an end! The Lord will deliver you!! And He will deliver me.

Good old Mr. Spurgeon’s comments on this verse are for you today, to encourage you & give you hope:

Many are the afflictions of the righteous. Thus are they made like Jesus their covenant head. Scripture does does not flatter us like the story books with the idea that goodness will secure us from trouble; on the contrary, we are again and again warned to expect tribulation while we are in this body. But – blessed “but,” how it takes the sting out of the previous sentence! – But the Lord delivers him out of them all. Through troops of ills Jehovah will lead his redeemed scatheless and triumphant. There is an end to the believer’s affliction, and a joyful end too. 

My righteous friends, may this “blessed ‘but’” ring long and loud in your ears today! May the truth of the second half of this verse be greater to you than the first. Yes, we may have to suffer many afflictions in this lifetime. But God has promised to deliver us from every one! Not some of them, or most of them, but “them all!” Our trials will come to an end–a joyous triumphant end!

Monday August 3, 2009

Besides normal every day life that keeps me spinning — especially my busy 14 month old boy (can you believe he’s that old?!) and my over-abundant garden — I’ve got extra stuff going on right now.
One of my dearest and bestest friends moved today to Minnesota. And although I know I don’t write about where I do live, let’s just say that it is not remotely near Minnesota. Sigh. So we spent the weekend helping them pack the moving truck and saying goodbye. I hate that word: goodbye. I really do.
Also, I am on call waiting for our church intern’s wife to go into labor. Of course I’m not nearly as antsy about it as she is, poor dear is 41 weeks. But I get to pick up their 4 older kids when she goes into labor, and I am really excited about having them here. They are the sweetest, most joyful and obedient, lovely tow-heads you’ve ever met. Day or night, I am excited to go pick them up and share some time with them.
And this week our church is having a music camp for kids in grades 4-12. I am the accompanist, so I have lots of new music to learn. I just got the folder yesterday and some of it is a little daunting… my wrist hurts already from playing piano “too much”! 🙂
Although I still find that I am crying myself to sleep most nights, I know there is much to be thankful for. MUCH. And God’s goodness is all around me. I saw it this morning in the garden. I see it sitting right here in my boy. I feel it in my tummy, digesting yummy food. I taste it on my tongue, warm smooth coffee. I feel it with my fingers, bright technology. I know it will be ringing the doorbell soon, as my mother is on her way.
God is good. I am thankful. Even amidst griefs, sorrows, and goodbyes, there is new life and busy life and hope for the future.
Hallelujah and amen.

Thursday July 30, 2009

2 years ago today we held our first baby in our hands for the first & last time.
Our little Covenant Hope, who is not dead but now fully alive!!
She knows what is true fullness of joy, for she lives in His presence.
At the King’s right hand are pleasures forevermore, and so I know she eternally rejoices.

Psalm 16:11
You make known to me the path of life;

in Your presence there is fullness of joy;

at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

This is my comfort and my joy today.
Although I miss our little Covenant every day of my life, I know that God’s covenantal promises were for me.
For her. For my family. For all of our children.

Acts 2:39
“For the promise is for you and for your children
and for all who are far off,
everyone whom the Lord our God calls to Himself.”

Today we remember what the Lord has done.
Today we praise His name!
The Lord is faithful!!

Deuteronomy 7:9
Know therefore that the LORD your God is God,
the faithful God who keeps covenant and steadfast love
with those who love Him and keep His commandments,
to a thousand generations…


“If you have shallow sorrows
you will receive shallow graces.
If you have deep afflictions
you will obtain deeper proof
of God’s faithfulness.”
—Spurgeon (Beside Still Waters)

Wednesday July 29, 2009

C.H. Spurgeon’s words for today

Morning, July 29

“Nevertheless I am continually with thee.”
Psalm 73:23

“Nevertheless,”—As if, notwithstanding all the foolishness and ignorance which David had just been confessing to God, not one atom the less was it true and certain that David was saved and accepted, and that the blessing of being constantly in God’s presence was undoubtedly his. Fully conscious of his own lost estate, and of the deceitfulness and vileness of his nature, yet, by a glorious outburst of faith, he sings “nevertheless I am continually with thee.” Believer, you are forced to enter into Asaph’s confession and acknowledgment, endeavour in like spirit to say “nevertheless, since I belong to Christ I am continually with God!” By this is meant continually upon his mind, he is always thinking of me for my good. Continually before his eye;—the eye of the Lord never sleepeth, but is perpetually watching over my welfare. Continually in his hand, so that none shall be able to pluck me thence. Continually on his heart, worn there as a memorial, even as the high priest bore the names of the twelve tribes upon his heart forever. Thou always thinkest of me, O God. The bowels of thy love continually yearn towards me. Thou art always making providence work for my good. Thou hast set me as a signet upon thine arm; thy love is strong as death, many waters cannot quench it; neither can the floods drown it. Surprising grace! Thou seest me in Christ, and though in myself abhorred, thou beholdest me as wearing Christ’s garments, and washed in his blood, and thus I stand accepted in thy presence. I am thus continually in thy favor—“continually with thee.” Here is comfort for the tried and afflicted soul; vexed with the tempest within—look at the calm without. “Nevertheless”—O say it in thy heart, and take the peace it gives. “Nevertheless I am continually with thee.”


Psalm 107

BOOK FIVE
Let the Redeemed of the LORD Say So

 1 Oh give thanks to the LORD, for he is good,
   for his steadfast love endures forever!
2Let the redeemed of the LORD say so,
   whom he has redeemed from trouble
3and gathered in from the lands,
   from the east and from the west,
   from the north and from the south.

 4Some wandered in desert wastes,
   finding no way to a city to dwell in;
5hungry and thirsty,
   their soul fainted within them.
6Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
   and he delivered them from their distress.
7He led them by a straight way
   till they reached a city to dwell in.
8 Let them thank the LORD for his steadfast love,
   for his wondrous works to the children of man!
9For he satisfies the longing soul,
    and the hungry soul he fills with good things.

 10 Some sat in darkness and in the shadow of death,
   prisoners in affliction and in irons,
11for they had rebelled against the words of God,
   and spurned the counsel of the Most High.
12So he bowed their hearts down with hard labor;
   they fell down, with none to help.
13 Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
   and he delivered them from their distress.
14He brought them out of darkness and the shadow of death,
   and burst their bonds apart.
15 Let them thank the LORD for his steadfast love,
   for his wondrous works to the children of man!
16For he shatters the doors of bronze
   and cuts in two the bars of iron.

 17Some were fools through their sinful ways,
   and because of their iniquities suffered affliction;
18 they loathed any kind of food,
   and they drew near to the gates of death.
19 Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
   and he delivered them from their distress.
20He sent out his word and healed them,
   and delivered them from their destruction.
21 Let them thank the LORD for his steadfast love,
   for his wondrous works to the children of man!
22And let them offer sacrifices of thanksgiving,
   and tell of his deeds in songs of joy!

 23Some went down to the sea in ships,
   doing business on the great waters;
24they saw the deeds of the LORD,
   his wondrous works in the deep.
25For he commanded and raised the stormy wind,
   which lifted up the waves of the sea.
26They mounted up to heaven; they went down to the depths;
   their courage melted away in their evil plight;
27they reeled and staggered like drunken men
   and were at their wits’ end.
28 Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble,
   and he delivered them from their distress.
29He made the storm be still,
   and the waves of the sea were hushed.
30Then they were glad that the waters were quiet,
   and he brought them to their desired haven.
31 Let them thank the LORD for his steadfast love,
   for his wondrous works to the children of man!
32Let them extol him in the congregation of the people,
   and praise him in the assembly of the elders.

 33He turns rivers into a desert,
   springs of water into thirsty ground,
34 a fruitful land into a salty waste,
   because of the evil of its inhabitants.
35He turns a desert into pools of water,
    a parched land into springs of water.
36And there he lets the hungry dwell,
   and they establish a city to live in;
37they sow fields and plant vineyards
   and get a fruitful yield.
38 By his blessing they multiply greatly,
   and he does not let their livestock diminish.

 39When they are diminished and brought low
   through oppression, evil, and sorrow,
40 he pours contempt on princes
   and makes them wander in trackless wastes;
41but he raises up the needy out of affliction
   and makes their families like flocks.
42 The upright see it and are glad,
   and all wickedness shuts its mouth.

 43 Whoever is wise, let him attend to these things;
   let them consider the steadfast love of the LORD.


I think it is a sweet thing, that Christ saith of my cross, Half Mine, and that He divideth these sufferings with me and taketh the largest share to Himself; nay, that I, and my whole cross, are wholly Christ’s.
~Samuel Rutherford (1660-1661)


From Glory to Glory

by Pastor Sumpter

One way of looking at the book of Job is as a coming of age story. We have pointed out before that in the Bible, the categories of Priest, King, and Prophet can be seen not only as different roles but as steps in glory and maturity. We see this in Israel’s history: priests keep laws very carefully. They guard the sanctuary from defilement. Kings must build upon knowledge of the law, and apply it with wisdom. Solomon must judge between the feuding prostitutes in a case where this is no explicit command in Scripture. Kings must execute justice by applying the Scriptures to new situations. And finally, when God’s people have grown up in this wisdom, they are prepared to stand before God as prophets. Prophets are members of God’s court. They are God’s advisors. God tells them what he is planning to do, and they are invited to interact with that. Remember Abraham who discusses God’s plan destroy Sodom and Gomorrah or Moses on Mt. Sinai urging God to reconsider His plan to destroy the children of Israel. And because prophets are involved in the decision making process, they are authorized to speak on God’s behalf. Prophets bring and declare the word of the Lord with authority. They know what God is going to do because they were there when it was decided. Job’s story follows this trajectory. Job begins as an upright man who is blameless and shuns what is evil. He offers sacrifices for his sons who may have sinned; Job is introduced in the glory of a priest. But when his world comes apart, he must learn to navigate his circumstances that are more dicey. He must apply biblical truth to his situation faithfully, and he must seek justice through fighting back false accusations. Job must embrace the glory of kings. But the glory kings is in search of the glory of prophets. Kings want to know that they have struggled faithfully; they want an answer from the King of Kings. And so Job finally receives an answer from the whirlwind. And in that answer, Job is ushered into the presence of Yahweh. And in the conclusion to the story, God says that Job will pray for the three friends and God will hear and forgive them. Job has been granted the glory of a prophet. Job is a story of a man going from glory to glory, going from the glory of a priest to the glory of a king to the glory of a prophet. And the trajectory is important. God doesn’t want slaves, God doesn’t want machines, God wants sons. God wants sons that grow up into friends. We are gathered here this morning as the friends of God, filled with the Spirit of the Son, and therefore we are invited to guard his house as priests, to seek wisdom as kings, and to speak in His presence as prophets and be prepared to take what we learn back into the world.


~~this last bit is from the young Pipers in Minnesota. I occasionally pop by their blog, and this post I found today made my eyes fill with tears of understanding. Maybe you’ll see why. You can find their blog here http://thepipers.wordpress.com/~~

One of the things I’ve been grieving this last year is simply that I used to be a happy person. It used to be that my days were primarily happy, with the occasional interruption of melancholy or difficulty. For the last 22 months, the opposite has been mainly true.

One of my good friends uses the phrase “secondary losses.” I think that’s what this year has been—a whole bunch of secondary losses. The loss of innocence. The loss of happiness. The loss of youth.The loss of simplicity. And when you experience those secondary losses, you grieve.

I look at those two people and truly wonder if that is the same person I see in the mirror each day. I feel like I’ve aged something like 10 years since then.

Today, memories like this one make me cry—hard. We had no idea that we were a few weeks away from one of the worst tragedies we’ll ever face.

So if you’re a mom like me, living without one (or more) of your children, take heart that this is indeed one of the hardest things you will ever live through. But that also means that you lived.

The lines around your eyes will deepen. But that also means you’ve seen. You’ve seen the chaos of pain. Your eyes have and will shed tears for people in their pain that you could’ve never understood before. This is a blessed gift.

Hold on with me. We’re gonna make it. We might not be the happy-go-lucky gals we used to be, but our lives here will tell stories of indescribable loss and the love of a God who made us to be exactly who we are—every line, every gray hair. None of it is wasted.


Wednesday July 29, 2009

Thanks for the prayers and sweet thoughts today!
We are praising God because our attempts to get things done at the clinic was finally successful today! God is good. He graciously ordained that all the bloodwork would get started today, that I would *not* pass out, that Steven would be able to go late to work, that I would also get another diagnostic procedure done today, and that everything would be done on time & no one was on vacation!! So happy, so thankful.
God is good, and now we continue to rest in His care as we await results. We are hoping for everything to be negative of course, but we’ll take it one result at a time.
Thank you for your continued care for us. God bless and keep you.