Wednesday September 2, 2009

My sweet, sweet hubby popped in a movie for us to watch on the laptop last night… What was it?, you ask.
Anne of Green Gables. I remember when I used to have the entire thing memorized, practically word for word. I soaked it all in, and enjoyed every scene, every landscape, every outfit, every clever line, every beautiful home.
Have I mentioned lately how positively incredible my husband is?? I am one of those women who wants to get a t-shirt claiming that I have the best husband in the world. But you know, then I am sure I would get into a quarrel with someone sooner or later and it just wouldn’t be pretty. Because I would have to win. Just have to. 🙂 My husband is so loving and attentive, caring and diligent, purposeful and understanding, strong and tender. He leads me, he supports me, he prays for me and with me. God is so kind.

**happy sigh**


My silly, silly little son went to the library with his mommy this morning and was so happy picking out five books to bring home to enjoy later. We even ran into & visited with two ladies (one from church, one from Steven’s office) that we knew. But then it happened. We had to check out at the library. And of course they like you to do “self check-out” these days. But unfortunately, my silly, silly little son is terrified of the receipt printer.

Maybe you can imagine the terror involved for the poor little boy. The full-body trembling. The fingernails digging into Mommy’s neck. The screaming. The wide eyes and fat tears.
Let’s just say I will never be doing self-check-out at the library again. Probably ever.

**tired sigh**

Saturday August 29, 2009

Some days are easier than others, to look ahead and have hope for the future.
True, complete, peaceful, unabashed HOPE.

It seems like most days, my heart feels like Job:
“Where then is my hope? Who will see my hope?” (Job 17:15) “He breaks me down on every side, and I am gone, and my hope has he pulled up like a tree.” (Job 19:10) “But when I hoped for good, evil came, and when I waited for light, darkness came.” (Job 30:26)
And it has been a blessing to put myself in a position of listening to sermons on Job, because I feel close to him.

And most days, I need wonderful reminders like these:
 
Deuteronomy 3:18

The LORD Himself goes before you and will be with you; He will never leave you nor forsake you.
Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged.
Psalm 46:1
GOD is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
Psalm 28:7
The LORD is my strength and my shield, in Him my heart trusts, so I am helped, and my heart exults, and with my song I give thanks to Him.
Psalm 73:26
My flesh and my heart may fail, but GOD is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.
Psalm 119:116
Uphold me according to your promise, that I may live,and let me not be put to shame in my hope!
Proverbs 23:18
Surely there is a future,and your hope will not be cut off.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
Lamentations 3:21-25
But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope:
The steadfast love of the LORD never ceases;
His mercies never come to an end,
they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.
“The LORD is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in Him.”
The LORD is good to those who wait for Him,to the soul who seeks Him.
1 Corinthians 1:25
For GOD’S foolishness is wiser than human wisdom, and GOD’S weakness is stronger than human strength.

Thursday August 27, 2009

I love my parents.
They are the best.
I’m so thankful for godly counselors, encouragers, and prayer warriors.
These are some of the things they encouraged me with today:

Matthew 6:34
do not be anxious about tomorrow,
for tomorrow will be anxious for itself.
Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.


Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
and He will make straight your paths.


Psalm 103:13
“As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the LORD shows compassion to those who fear Him.”



and then this was my favorite from my dad:

Exodus 17:9-13
So Moses said to Joshua, “Choose for us men, and go out and fight with Amalek.
Tomorrow I will stand on the top of the hill with the staff of God in my hand.”
So Joshua did as Moses told him, and fought with Amalek, while
Moses, Aaron, and Hur went up to the top of the hill.
Whenever Moses held up his hand, Israel prevailed,
and whenever he lowered his hand, Amalek prevailed.
But Moses’ hands grew weary,
so they took a stone and put it under him, and he sat on it,
while Aaron and Hur held up his hands, one on one side, and the other on the other side.
So his hands were steady until the going down of the sun.
And Joshua overwhelmed Amalek and his people with the sword.

What does that have to do with anything??, you ask.
Well, my hands have grown so weary.
I feel like I can not possibly hold them up anymore.
I need a stone to sit on.
And my daddy said he will hold up my hands.
Praise the Lord.

Thursday August 27, 2009

My newest endeavor is “worship practice” with Gabriel every day of the week. No, it’s not the same for us as family worship. That is in the evening, right before his bedtime. So he is pretty calm and quiet and happy about it.
This is morning. This is without Daddy, since he is diligently providing and working. Just my boy and me. Right now we aim for thirty minutes: singing (his faaaaaavorite part), reading Scripture, and reading a devotional. It’s good for both of us. We do it during the time when we would be at church on Sunday (although for just 1/3 the amount of time). A time of day when Gabriel has copious amounts of energy. It can be a challenge, but we are hoping that daily training in worship will have beautiful, bountiful rewards.
Although right now I simply read a short devotional out loud to act as “the sermon”, my aim is to work up to using tapes or online sermons, and work with him on sitting quietly, sitting still, and sitting joyfully for the duration. I don’t expect this to happen overnight. But we are aiming towards a goal, and hope God will bless our efforts.

I am always thankful for the words of Spurgeon in the Morning And Evening readings.
The following was the reading for this morning, and the words pierced me.
Lord, I believe. Help Thou my unbelief!!


Numbers 14:11
“How long will it be ere they believe me?”

Strive with all diligence to keep out that monster unbelief. It so dishonors Christ, that he will withdraw his visible presence if we insult him by indulging it. It is true it is a weed, the seeds of which we can never entirely extract from the soil, but we must aim at its root with zeal and perseverance. Among hateful things it is the most to be abhorred. Its injurious nature is so venomous that he that exerciseth it and he upon whom it is exercised are both hurt thereby. In thy case, O believer! it is most wicked, for the mercies of thy Lord in the past, increase thy guilt in doubting him now. When thou dost distrust the Lord Jesus, he may well cry out, “Behold I am pressed under you, as a cart is pressed that is full of sheaves.” This is crowning his head with thorns of the sharpest kind. It is very cruel for a well-beloved wife to mistrust a kind and faithful husband. The sin is needless, foolish, and unwarranted. Jesus has never given the slightest ground for suspicion, and it is hard to be doubted by those to whom our conduct is uniformly affectionate and true. Jesus is the Son of the Highest, and has unbounded wealth; it is shameful to doubt Omnipotence and distrust all-sufficiency. The cattle on a thousand hills will suffice for our most hungry feeding, and the granaries of heaven are not likely to be emptied by our eating. If Christ were only a cistern, we might soon exhaust his fulness, but who can drain a fountain? Myriads of spirits have drawn their supplies from him, and not one of them has murmured at the scantiness of his resources. Away, then, with this lying traitor unbelief, for his only errand is to cut the bonds of communion and make us mourn an absent Saviour. Bunyan tells us that unbelief has “as many lives as a cat:” if so, let us kill one life now, and continue the work till the whole nine are gone. Down with thee, thou traitor, my heart abhors thee.

Thursday August 27, 2009

Just wanted to post a short & sweet medical update. Won’t go into details, since it’s a public blog. 🙂
But I want to thank you for your prayers. Those of you who have prayed for us over the summer have truly blessed and encouraged us. May God bless you for your faithfulness and your care for His people.
We had our final appointment yesterday with the reproductive endocrinologist. Well, the last fertility research appointment. Hopefully the next time we see him it will be for maternity monitoring. That is our prayer.
Most of the tests came back normal. We even got to see pictures of our chromosomes. Kind of like in a textbook. It was funny, and pretty clever actually. 🙂 Thankfully my hubby and I both come from medical backgrounds/families so we catch onto the medical lingo really quick. Otherwise we probably would have been so confused, haha.
So the only main “marker” is that I have hypothyroidism. The bad thing about it is that it could have been the reason (possibly. or at least a contributing factor maybe?) for the deaths of our three babies. The good thing about it is that it’s treatable. So I am on medication now for the rest of my life, and hopefully it will make a difference. I am already noticing, just a few weeks after starting it, a few major changes. And I am so thankful and happy!! The main change being that I no longer feel constant lethargy, like I am trudging around knee-deep in mud every day. God is good, and I am so thankful for this treatment.
There were one or two other small markers, but one isn’t probably a factor and the other we can’t do anything about. So that’s that.

So what’s next?

We continue petitioning our good and merciful Father in Heaven.
We pray for Him to fill my empty, aching womb.
We pray for Him to fill our home with dancing and laughter and the pitter-patter of many tiny feet.
We pray for Him to use the medication and new knowledge we have to help our next babies.
We pray for Him to give us patience and hope for the future.
We pray for Him to give us peace and comfort.
We pray for Him to accomplish a miracle in our family. Many, many miracles actually. 🙂

Thank you again for your encouragement, support, and prayers.
May the Lord bless you for your faithfulness.
Praise the Lord!

PSALM 113

Praise the LORD! Praise, O servants of the LORD,
   praise the name of the LORD!

Blessed be the name of the LORD
   from this time forth and forevermore!
From the rising of the sun to its setting,
    the name of the LORD is to be praised!

The LORD is high above all nations,
   and His glory above the heavens!
Who is like the LORD our God,
   who is seated on high,
who looks far down
   on the heavens and the earth?
He raises the poor from the dust
   and lifts the needy from the ash heap,
to make them sit with princes,
   with the princes of his people.
He gives the barren woman a home,
   making her the joyous mother of children.
Praise the LORD!

Monday August 24, 2009

“Surely goodness and mercy
shall follow me all the days of my life…”
Psalm 23:6a

Wait a minute. Did you get that? Did you let that sink in?
Or did you skim over it, since you have read that verse a million times in your life?

Go back. Read it again. Absorb every syllable.

“SURELY goodness and mercy SHALL follow me ALL the days of my life.”

In the dictionary, it defines surely as follows:
          firmly, unerringly, undoubtedly, assuredly, certainly, inevitably, or without fail.
It also defines shall as follows:
          will have to, is determined to, definitely will.
And then all is defined as:
          the whole of, every.

Just think about that.

Okay, wow.
Surely doesn’t mean maybe.
And all doesn’t mean some.
Praise the Lord!!!!

“With God these qualities are not merely solid and dependable,” explains Derek Kidner, “but vigorous–for ‘follow’ does not mean here to bring up the rear but to pursue.”

If you are a Christian, goodness and mercy follow you “always” says Charles Spurgeon: “the black days as well as the bright days. Goodness supplies our needs, and mercy blots out our sins.”

HALLELUJAH & AMEN!!!

Sunday August 23, 2009

We went on a day trip to a huuuuuge lake nearby, and really enjoyed the little town, the beach, the park… too fun.
Gabriel loves swinging. A LOT.

Baby feet in the sand! Gabriel wasn’t too sure about the waves though. 🙂

We stopped for some gelato, and our tastebuds had a party!

Another day, we went berry picking again. Gabriel liked checking out some of the farm machinery.

I *looooove* this picture. I want to frame it.

Here we are with our blackberries. We only got about 5 pounds each I think, so I might go back again. 🙂

Gabriel standing in the raspberry rows.

We ran into my brother & his family later-on! Guess the farms were *the* place to be on Saturday!
See my precious twins?! Well, not exactly mine. 🙂 But my niece and nephew! They’re adorable.

We got a picture like this last year, except the twins were in Auntie’s tummy.
So here’s the 2009 picture of Gabriel with all his aunts, uncles, and cousins. 🙂

Thursday August 20, 2009

The four little towheads we enjoyed babysitting last week. 🙂


Swinging on Grandmama’s porch! Gabriel’s favorite. 🙂

A drive-by photography shooting, lol. I snapped this as I drove home from my mom’s.
A Jamie Soles song was playing at that very moment with the lyrics “I have set My bow in the clouds….” about the covenant with Noah. So cool. 🙂

Grandpapa got this miniature fully-functioning vacuum for Gabriel. He loves it! Although it’s slightly heavy for him and gets him off-balance, so we help him as he does his housework chores. 😉

Wildflowers from the side yard.

Playing with Uncle Chris and Aunt Beth who are visiting from the East Coast.

We went on a double date to a fondue restaurant and had the best time!!


We got two different types of cheese fondue.

My drink: a strawberry basil lemonade, made with Smirnoff.

This dessert deserves one word. Scrumptious!

We were dipping oreo covered marshmallows in the chocolate. Mmmmm.

Me and my sweetie

I made meals for some families at church yesterday, and really enjoyed trying to make them beautiful as well as tasty. Like Edith Schaeffer’s “hidden art” principles. 🙂 Each meal included grilled chicken (marinated in lemon juice, garlic, white wine vinegar, oil, and four herbs from my garden), twice baked potatoes, sauteed squash from my garden, freshly baked honey-oat-whole-wheat bread, tayberry jam (we made it last fall), and a plate of fresh blackberry bars. We’re hoping everyone’s bellies were filled and tastebuds had a little party. 🙂

We went to a beautiful park nearby yesterday.

I love these pics of Gabriel with Aunt Beth!


Look how big my boy is!! Fifteen months this weekend. It’s crazy.
I love how he’s running for me in this picture. He does this a lot. 🙂


Mommy helped Gabriel enjoy some splashes from a big fountain. It cooled us off in the heat.

Thursday August 20, 2009

BLACKBERRY BARS

Ingredients:

  • 1 cup all-purpose flour
  • 3/4 cup brown sugar, packed
  • 1/4 cup butter
  • 1/2 cup sour cream
  • 1 egg, beaten
  • 3/4 teaspoon baking soda
  • 1/4 teaspoon salt
  • 1 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/2 teaspoon vanilla
  • 1 1/2 cups fresh blackberries

Preparation:

Combine flour and brown sugar; cut in butter with pastry blender until mixture resembles coarse meal. Press 1 1/3 cups of mixture in bottom of an ungreased 8-inch square pan.

Combine remaining crumb mixture, sour cream, egg, baking soda, salt, cinnamon, and vanilla; blend well. Stir in blackberries. Spoon over crust, spreading evenly. Bake at 350° for 30 to 40 minutes. Cool; cut into bars.

 

Note: I made a double batch of the shortbread crust and used all of this to line a 9×13 inch pan. Then I made a scant single recipe of it to make the topping mixture. Yummy!

 

Saturday August 15, 2009

I love the formal titles discussion we’ve been having, but here’s a snippet I simply have to share. I’m pretty sure we all agree that modesty is a necessity in our lives (although, I grant you, definitions of “what is modest” vary vastly), especially as Christian women setting good examples for our children (or friends or siblings or what-have-you). Even amongst women of the Church, I see far too much cleavage, and too many bellies & backs.
I for one seem to be always on the lookout for simple solutions, especially in the summer. (right? right!)

So! I was picking up some groceries at Costco yesterday and found a special section of “visiting” wares from a company called ModBod. I picked up a 2-pack of the Perfect Tank, which are going to be life-savers in dressing modestly! I’m so excited to share this link. Although they won’t be at Costco in the future (too bad cuz there was an incredible discount!), I think I will be purchasing from the online place. As a note, they run smallish. So consider ordering bigger. 🙂
I’m excited to see the fall and winter line coming up soon, which I’ve seen previewed on the company founder’s blog. And maybe I’ll get some pretty things there sometime instead of simply under-clothing. 🙂